There is peace in the shelter of His arms.

Monday night my papaw passed away.

He was truly the most amazing man I ever knew, 
And I was so incredibly blessed to have him as a grandfather.
He raised my dad to be the great man & father that he is today, & I am beyond grateful.

I have literally been preparing myself for my Papaws death for over a year.
He hasn't been doing well for a while and so anytime I would get a
"Where are you?" "call me" text from my mom I would assume the worst.
Sometimes I feel like assuming the worst in these situations is the better choice.

It's funny how you think you are so prepared for someones death,
but then when it happens, when you get the phone call,
and you just KNOW...this is it. It happened.
It still hurts just as much as if it were a complete shock.

I had been talking to my mom all day,
She had been warning me with multiple phone calls, "it's getting worse..."
I was surprisingly calm throughout the whole process,
even a few weeks ago when she first told me he was sent to the hospital.
I was proud of myself, I prepared myself and I would get through this.
But when I got "the call", she didn't even have to say anything,
I just knew.
And I cried hard, all day and night.

I think I cried mostly for my dad, knowing how much he was hurting was killing me.
Death is such a hard thing to deal with.
I'm heading home either today or tomorrow to be with my family,
and the funeral is Friday morning.

Please keep my family in your prayers!
I hope all of you have a great day, 
Go call your grandparents and tell them how much you love them.


  1. Monica, I'm so sorry for your loss! Keeping you and your family in my prayers! *hugs*

  2. So sorry to hear :( Your grandpa is in a better place. Grandparents are some of the most special people in our lives. Will pray for you and your family.

  3. So sorry for your loss, Monica!! xo

  4. Thinking of you & your family, girl. May God bless him and rest his soul in peace.

  5. Awee... sorry for your loss darling!
    God just has to collect his angels back <3


  6. I am so sorry for your loss. No matter how prepared you think you are, it's never enough. I lost my grandpa last year, he hadn't been doing well for some time. When they had to put him in a nursing home I knew he wouldn't be coming out, so I tried to prepare myself.. But you really can't. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  7. Awww i'm so sorry for your loss girly :( It must be so hard loosing someone so special.
    Thanking of you and your family

  8. Aww so sorry to heart about this Monica. The worst part about losing my Nana was to see my Dad in tears. But you have a whole childhood of amazing memories to keep tucked in your heart forever. Thinking about you!

  9. I'm so sorry about your loss. My grandpa passed away 7 years ago from cancer, and I still have my days where I can't control my tears. It's hard knowing that they're gone, but at the same time, you feel blessed to have been able to have them be such a big part of your life. I'll be thinking about you and your family!

  10. I am so sorry to hear about your darling grandfather. This post really touched me. Am thinking of you. xx

  11. I am so sorry for your loss! You & your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

  12. I am so sorry about your Grandpa passing away. Death really is super hard to deal with. I unfortunately have been in the same situation where you have tried to prepare yourself for what is coming. It still doesn't make the loss of a loved one any easier. You will definitely be in my thoughts!!

  13. so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

  14. It took me a couple of days to comment on this one... we experienced an unexpected death in my family almost 2 weeks ago, and I learned that although you want to offer comfort and condolences, there really are no perfect words to say in this situation :(

    I hope you and your family are finding some peace in this, and I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers!