I can’t believe how close we are.
We’re really going to be PARENTS. We’re going to have a SON.
It’s so exciting and so scary all at the same time.
I am just full of feelings lately but the strongest & most consistent feeling is gratitude.
It blows my mind that the Lord handpicked Kyle and I to be Hayes’s mommy & daddy,
That He considers us worthy and capable of something so amazing.
How did I get so lucky? Why am I receiving these blessings? I ask myself these questions every single day…
I’m so undeserving but so incredibly grateful.
// Knit Doll //
Okay, I’m going to stop talking now and get straight to the bump date because now i’m crying!!!!!
How far along: 33 weeks + 4 days
Due date: March 4th! Measuring right on track!
Gender: ALL boyyyyyy – Hayes Wyatt / Hawk / Bubs / Little Dude / Stinker Butt / I’m sure this list of names will grow tremendously haha
How big is baby? This week, Hayes is as big as celery? haha He weighs 4 lbs 10oz exactly!
Total weight gain/loss: I’ve gained 25 lbs total!
Stretch Marks?: I totally thought I was going to be able to avoid these but I did notice a few on my chest recently…so I’ve been lathering myself in cocoa butter nonstop! But hey, as long as I get a healthy baby boy at the end of this thing a few stretch marks are no big deal!
This week, baby: Has moved into the head down position, and is getting ready for his grand entrance! He now keeps his eyes open while awake and is starting to coordinate breathing with sucking and swallowing.
Exercise: What’s exercise?? HA. I have been stretching a lot more lately because everything is so uncomfortable and tight, I’m still trying to go on long walks as often as possible!
What I’m googling: HOW THE HECK DO I WRITE A BIRTH PLAN. I’ve been trying to finish this since my last bump date 5 weeks ago!! For some reason I’m having the hardest time with it. Also googling “what to pack in my hospital bag”.. and just what the heck to do in general!!
Purchases I’ve made/nesting update: Haven’t really made any new purchases recently. Oh wait, that’s a lie. I bought some super sexy “after birth” underwear and some MASSIVE pads. And if you don’t know me very well the “super sexy” part of that sentence is extremely sarcastic. Probs going to buy some adult diapers soon for the postpartum bleeding, heck with the bladder leakage I’ve got going on I might as well just start wearing them now!!
How are you feeling?
Physically: Physically, I feel great most hours of the day, nighttime seems to be the worst for me. Everything starts aching in the evenings and Hayes starts putting a lot of pressure on my pelvic area. Sometimes it also feels like he’s trying to push his way out of my stomach. Baths are a MUST every single day now, sometimes multiple times a day.
Emotionally: Emotionally, I’m a hot freaking mess. Like I can’t even try and play this one down, I am officially a lunatic. SO emotional and SO hormonal. We spent the day at my sister in laws house Monday afternoon playing games and just hanging out with the family and I cried the entire hour long ride home because “I just love Charley so much” (Charley is our dog) When I say I cried, I mean I sobbed hysterically. Crying is something that happens every day now, for a multitude of reasons – because i’m so happy, or love someone/something so much, i’m hurting and uncomfortable, i’m ready to meet Hayes, i’m overwhelmed at everything we still have to do, something hurt my feelings, i’m terrified of labor, someone looked at me wrong, someone didn’t look at me, Kyle asked me what’s for dinner, Kyle sat on the wrong couch, Kyle ate my favorite cereal (y’all just pray for Kyle)…honestly I could try and list all the things that have made me cry in the last two weeks but it would take several hours and I know y’all don’t really care SO I’ll just leave it at that obnoxious list above. I should’ve just put “unstable” and left it at that hahaha
Maternity clothes: are sent from the Lord above Himself and if you’re pregnant and avoiding maternity clothing then you’re also a lunatic and you need to get ya some stretchy pants NOW.
Sleep: Well, when I do actually fall asleep I tend to let out a big snort and wake myself back up…Sleep is no longer something I look forward too because it kind of just doesn’t happen and feels like work. Guess my body is preparing me for the long sleepless nights of motherhood!
Best moment this week: We got to see baby boy on ultrasound yesterday!!! He has grown SO much and looks completely different than I imagined! He has a full head of hair & SUPER chubby cheeks and I just can’t wait to hold him and kiss him and tell him how perfect he is. He loves having his foot up by his face and is very stubborn, just like his daddy – never wants photos taken of him! He yawned a lot and made so many silly facial expressions!
Worst moment this week: Well, with the bad weather Kyle had to move a bunch of his work priorities around and he accidentally scheduled his super busy interview session day during our ultrasound…I’ll spare y’all the details but I basically had a panic attack/pity party/hysterical breakdown at the thought of him missing our last ultrasound…it was BAD, pretty sure I started getting contractions mid breakdown. BUT I pulled myself together and we were able to get the ultrasound re scheduled (to yesterday) so he was able to come!!! Praise the Lord.
Miss anything? Well, sorry if this is TMI but attempting to shave my legs (& other areas) is pretty much the worlds most difficult and exhausting task. My belly is so big now that I literally can’t see a damn thing, I can’t bend or lean over without squishing my child and all of my organs, If I try to shave my legs while sitting down I can only do the outsides of my thighs because my belly covers the tops of my thighs…Oh, and painting my toes?? Nope, literally impossible. Honestly, if I put on pants and shoes these days I consider that a huge success as well as my work out for the week.
Movement: He’s just full of energy and wiggles around nonstop! Lately we’ve been having so much fun trying to guess which part of his body we’re feeling.
Cravings/Eating: Still craving sweets – Craving sugary cereal more than ice cream lately!
Symptoms: Emotional wreck//tight & achy lower back//moving a lot slower//waddling//shortness of breath//
How’s Daddy doing? Kyle is amazing, he can’t wait for Hayes to get here and has been SO supportive and sweet and patient with me during this entire pregnancy. He’s going to be such an incredible dad, I can already picture him teaching Hayes how to fix and build things and I can’t freaking wait to watch them interact together.
Looking forward to: My baby shower!! It’s in a couple weeks and I can’t wait to see all of my close friends and family together celebrating this special boy of ours.
To-dos this week: Find a pediatrician//Order Breast Pump//Write down a list of what to pack in hospital bag//RELAX
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