Happy Monday! Kyle and I attended our really good friends wedding this weekend and it was SO unbelievably beautiful. Weddings ALWAYS make me cry…
I have always been the girl crying whether I personally know the couple or not…
Mainly the moment when the bride walks down the aisle, it’s just such a special and exciting moment and I always think back to when that was ME and how excited I was to see Kyle waiting for me.

These days, weddings take on a whole new meaning, I no longer see myself as the bride,
I now picture myself as the mother of the groom and HOLY SMOKES, whenever the mother + son dance happens you better believe I am in the corner BAWLINGGGG like a baby.

Life is so different now, I am so different now, we are so different now.
And sometimes “different” is a really really really good thing.

So today I’m sharing how our marriage has changed since Hayes came into our lives.

I will never forget all of the little details and special moments Kyle and I shared together the day that Hayes was born and we became parents.
I remember seeing Kyle hold Hayes for the first time, I remember staring at him while he was staring at our son and just being in disbelief at how any of this was real life.
There are no words to explain the amount of pure joy I experienced that day,
I remember thinking that it was all too good to be true, how in the world did I get so lucky?!

My love for Kyle grew tremendously after going through the whole labor and delivery process together.
It’s funny because so many of us women, me included, don’t want our husbands to look “down there” when we’re having a baby. I told Kyle I didn’t want him too because I was scared he’d never be able to look at me the same…
Well, he ended up being down there, right in the middle of the action, front row seat…
He watched our son come into this world and I’m pretty sure he sees me in a completely different way now,
but you know what? That’s actually a GOOD thing. He witnessed firsthand what my body is capable of.
He got to witness how strong I am. I can’t tell y’all how many times he told me he was proud of me that day,
and honestly I have never been more proud of myself.
Having a baby is the hardest, most intense, scary, painful, amazing, wonderful, empowering thing in the world and I’m so glad Kyle was there with me every single step of the way.

Fast forward to our first few days home, I was SO incredibly emotional.
Those first few nights/weeks are definitely the sweetest but also the most challenging.
I remember Kyle would walk into our room and I would just be staring at Hayes and sobbing uncontrollably because I was so in awe at this beautiful life that Kyle and I created and that the Lord blessed us with.
This sounds crazy, but the happiness/thankfulness that I felt was almost too much for my heart to handle.
Now that my hormones have settled down a bit I’m able to handle those feelings much better haha
But goodness I just could not keep myself together those first few days // weeks!

The first week or so was definitely hard but when it comes to our relationship we were still in that “honeymoon” phase of the whole new baby thing. Kyle took a week off work to stay home and help,
he originally planned on taking two weeks off but he ended up staying home the entire week before Hayes was born because we thought he was coming any minute!

That week while Kyle was home was hands down one of the best experiences of my life.
We grew so much together in that week and Kyle was SO helpful and encouraging.
I remember just crying all the time when I would look at Kyle because I knew I wouldn’t have survived that first week without his support. When you’re breastfeeding it’s honestly hard for other people to help you because you’re doing it NONSTOP and it’s kind of just something that you and your baby have to figure out, but gosh Kyle went above and beyond to make sure he was there for me in whatever way possible that first week and it was AMAZING and much needed. He changed WAY more diapers than I did and was always asking me what I needed or what he could do to help. It made me see Kyle in an entirely different way. He knew how fragile I was and he was extra gentle with me and my emotions and went out of his way to speak praise over me and tell me how great I was doing.
(literally crying right now thinking about all of this)

The first week home with your baby is a complete learning experience, not only just trying to figure out what the heck to do with this tiny human but also figuring out your roles as parents and who does what.

Gosh, I remember my first meltdown like it was yesterday, Hayes was probably 4 days old and I really hadn’t been sleeping whatsoever at night and my hormones were all over the place.
Hayes was crying… screaming really. I had changed him, fed him, done everything I could to soothe him and NOTHING was working.
I remember being SO upset and so frustrated and just feeling defeated.
It’s extremely discouraging as a new mama when you can’t calm/soothe you’re own baby.
I just started sobbing and angrily yelled “JUST TAKE HIM!!!!” and basically threw him at Kyle.
I wish I could say that was the only time I did that, BUTTTT it wasn’t…
{For those of you that won’t have any help, the best advice I can give you when situations like this occur is to set the baby in a safe place and step outside and take some deep breaths.
If you’ve already changed, fed, made sure the baby wasn’t hurt or being pinched and attempted your best soothing methods and the baby is still screaming and you are about to lose it, set the baby in the crib or a safe place, walk outside, take some deep breaths, and just give yourself a minute to breathe and calm down and then go back in and try again!}

One thing I found interesting was that Kyle and I both would have our “melt down” moments, but they were never ever at the same time.
If I was super frustrated and losing it and hysterical Kyle was calm as a cucumber and would immediately take Hayes and would be super patient and soothing to him.
Whenever Kyle would get frustrated and angry and just be “done” I was always there to happily take over.
I don’t know if that was a coincidence, a God thing, or just what happens when you’re parents.
But anytime one of us would lose our cool the other was perfectly fine and in good spirits and would be able to take over.
In those moments it would be a bit chaotic because one of us would be at our wits end but it was also always really beautiful because if we looked past all of the stress we were able to see how great of a team we are and it was such an awesome feeling.
Every time one of us was struggling, the other would always be there to carry the weight until the other was strong enough again, I can’t tell you how many times during those HARD and LONG and frustrating first few weeks we’d just look at each other and say “we make a really good team…”

It definitely hasn’t all been rainbows and butterflies when it comes to our relationship as new parents though.
It was a huge adjustment for us when Kyle went back to work.
I remember his first day back, I was SO excited for him to get home and I had these super high expectations. Hayes was really good that day and I managed to clean the house and even make myself look decent! I figured as soon as he got home he would just run up to Hayes and grab him and love on him because he missed him so much all day and then he’d be amazed at how good the house looked and ask me how the day went and tell me how proud he was of me etc etc….
Well, Kyle got home and of course said hi to us but immediately sat at the table, got his computer out, and had to do more work, didn’t ask how the day went, didn’t notice the clean house and just wasn’t as excited as I thought he would be to see us. I remember my feelings were SO hurt and I felt so disappointed.

I was so used to him being extra sweet and fully present and energetic and willing to help in any way possible and that’s what I was expecting when he got home…of course he was still sweet, but it was just different.
Kyle going back to work was really hard on me because his personality changed, mainly because he was just exhausted and his desire to help at all hours wasn’t quite there anymore because he knew he had to get up early and work all day, which is totally understandable and I don’t blame him one bit, but goodness gracious it was hard!
I kept my feelings to myself at first
(& by at first I mean the first hour he was home, then I broke down in tears…surprise surprise lol)
I was honest and told him how I felt disappointed that he wasn’t SO excited to see us when he got home and how he didn’t notice the clean house etc and he apologized and of course said that he’s ALWAYS excited to see us, that he was just completely worn out.

Communication is extremely important in relationships and even more important when you become parents. You’ve got to be on the same page with your partner and you’ve got to be open and honest about your thoughts and feelings, it’s so easy to get overwhelmed or stressed or disappointed so being open with one another about that will only make things easier.
Once Kyle got used to being back at work he was back to himself, it just took him a few days to adjust.

There also comes a time when you may feel resentment towards your husband, particularly if you’re breastfeeding. I can’t tell you how many times i’ve been up all hours of the night nursing Hayes and Kyle is snoring next to me and I seriously wanted to just throat punch him hahaha
I maaaayyyyy or may not be guilty of “accidentally” elbowing him while changing nursing positions in the middle of the night.
Oh, and if your husband ever complains about how tired he is you will most likely start thinking about all of the different ways you could murder him…totally normal.
Having a newborn comes with a WHOLE lot of extreme feelings for us mamas, you will either be so in awe and in love and thankful for your husband or you will want to whack him across the head with a stick.
All normal, as long as you don’t actually harm your husband…
however “accidentally” elbowing him to wake him up when he’s snoring and you haven’t slept in 4 days is fair game.

There really isn’t an easy way to explain how your relationship changes when you become parents.
It’s so special having this little human that’s a part of both of you and it’s so special having this little human that you both love more than you ever even knew your heart was capable of loving.
Having Hayes has definitely brought us closer as husband and wife,
of course Kyle and I love each other SO much and we love our families SO much…
but there really is nothing like the love you have for your child, it’s definitely a special kind of love.

As parents you both play very important roles in that sweet babes life, but there’s definitely a BIG difference in the way a mama thinks and the way a dad thinks, this can make things hard because men and women think so differently so it’s hard for men to understand why us mamas do or don’t do certain things.

I am on high alert at all times, I can’t tell you how irritating it is when Kyle says “just nap when Hayes naps!!!”
I FREAKING WISH it worked like that. My mind never turns off during the day, so when Hayes is napping I’m thinking about all of the things around the house that need to be done and I’m thinking about when he’s going to need to eat next and constantly checking to make sure he’s comfortable and breathing etc….

Another thing that’s changed is my want and need for affection/cuddles from Kyle.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love to cuddle on the couch every now and then.
BUT I have a baby on me or my boob pretty much all day long so once Kyle gets home I just want some time to myself, which is something he’s definitely had to get used too. Physical touch has always been extremely important and necessary to me but now that I’m being touched nonstop by a baby I am desperate for 10 minutes where my body is just my own and not being used for the comfort of others! haha

There have definitely been a lot of changes to our relationship since having a baby but I really think they’ve mostly all been positive. I actually think we get out and go on more dates now than we did before Hayes was here! Of course we bring Hayes with us but I still consider that a date, he’s still little so half the time we forget he’s there lol

We have our good days and bad days and we are so imperfect.
We still learn new things every day but the most important thing is that we’re learning and growing together, I think Kyle is hands down the best dad in the world and Kyle is constantly telling me how lucky Hayes is to have the best mom around. I can’t tell y’all how important it is to praise your partner and tell them they’re doing a good job, because being a parent is hard work. It’s physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting and to hear your partner tell you that you’re doing great is the best thing in the world and also just makes you feel more confident as a new parent.

Having a baby will definitely test your relationship but it doesn’t have to ruin it.
Work together as a team and make it clear what you expect from one another.
Be open and honest about your feelings.
Don’t expect your husbands to read your mind {guilty}, tell them what you need from them.
Don’t forget to love on your husbands, ask about their day, talk about things other than the baby.
and MAKE FRIENDS WITH OTHER NEW PARENTS.

I swear it is life changing being able to hang out with people who are in the same stage of life as you and can relate to ALL THE THINGS. This has been the most helpful thing for me especially, having new moms to talk too and hang out with and relate too. Being a new mama can be very lonely, having even just one friend who’s a mom is seriously so important and will make your life so much better and help you feel more sane.

Well guys, Hayes is waking up from his nap and we’re going to go get some fresh air and hang out in the backyard. I hope y’all enjoyed this post and I hope it helped you realize that becoming parents doesn’t mean your life is over or your relationship is doomed!

Watching my husband become a father has been one of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed.
I have never loved Kyle more than I do in this moment and I know as we continue on this whole parenting journey I’m only going to continue loving him more and more and more.
It’s funny because you think your heart is only capable of loving someone so much and then you experience something new with them and it’s like you fall in love all over again but even harder than the last time.

CHEERS TO ALL THE NEW PARENTS OUT THERE,
YOU GOT THIS.

Hey y’all!!

Today’s post is all about swimwear & beachwear for the new mama who should be PROUD of her body,
regardless of what it looks like.

I remember the first few weeks after giving birth I was on a complete high, my body definitely wasn’t pretty, but I was SO incredibly proud of what it had just done that the last thing on my mind was “bouncing back” or worrying about losing the baby weight.
I knew that I would eventually lose the weight, with time and hard work…but honestly, the first 6 weeks postpartum I didn’t even stress about the extra pounds, I mean I wasn’t even allowed to work out yet so WHY be hard on myself about the way I look, right?!

Well fast forward to 7/8 weeks postpartum…I was able to work out now, but I didn’t have the time or the energy.
My tummy was still sticking out and jiggly and I didn’t look at all how I had pictured I would.

I’m officially 8 weeks and 5 days postpartum and I have good days and bad days, I’m human.
Some days I seriously don’t even think about my body or the way that I look.
And other days I dwell on it and pick out every flaw or imperfection and I’m hard on myself and tell myself that I should look better and I shouldn’t be this jiggly etc…

Thankfully I have an amazing husband and good friends to snap me out of it when I start to let the negative thoughts take over…
So for those of you who have a beautiful new baby and also have good days and bad days like myself,
Please remember on those tough days what your body has accomplished,
know that you are amazing and you are beautiful!!
Even though your body may not be in the best shape right now, it’s so important to love it through
every stage of life! You WILL get back in shape one day, but for now, when you see that tummy pooch or feel that extra jiggle, let it be a reminder of what your body has created!

Now, with all that being said I’m sharing some adorable swim/beachwear items for y’all!
So check them out, do a little shopping and CELEBRATE your body!!!!!

Hope you babes have the BEST weekend!!

Happy Tuesday y’all!!
Life has been crazy and I’ve been majorly slacking on getting blog posts up.
Hayes is just a little over 1 month old and we FINALLY have a bed time routine locked down for him!
So I figured i’d share that with y’all today, because as a new mama, I always loved reading about what other families do to get their babes ready for bedtime!

So we DO have a routine, however we don’t exactly have a set “bed time” for Hayes yet.
Our lives have been crazy, and we have visitors nonstop so our schedules are just all over the place.
Once things calm down a bit we’ll choose a time to put Hayes down every night but for now,
we just do our bed time routine whenever we get to it!

{sidenote: Every item I mention will be pictured and linked at the bottom of this post! OR you can just click the words throughout the post to go directly to the items – whichever you prefer}

So most babies have “fussy hours”, Hayes tends to get fussy from about 8pm-1am.
It’s usually either because of gas, or he just wants to be held/rocked.
So before his nighttime feedings I try to give him some gripe water to help with tummy issues.
If he’s crying more than usual and acting like he’s in a lot of pain then we’ll give him some simethicone drops – but we try to limit how often we give those!

For about the first month I would go to bed around 8 and Kyle would take the first shift so I could get some rest and have a little energy to take over for the rest of the night.
We just recently started putting Hayes in his bassinet but in the beginning he would sleep in between us in bed in his Dock a tot  {take $10 off any dock when you use my link}

Since Kyle is back at work I pretty much do the night time shift by myself, and honestly Hayes is pretty good the majority of the time so it’s not too bad!
Kyle would totally still take the first shift if I wanted him too but we were really missing getting to go to bed together at night so we’ve switched things up so we can all go to bed as a family.

Okay so in the evenings we dim all the lights and if the TV is on we try to keep the volume pretty low.
We bathe Hayes every night, but we only use soap on Tuesdays and Fridays, the other nights we kind of just rinse him off and get him to relax!
We’ll either bathe him together in the sink with our puj tub or I’ll put him in the bath with me.
I’ve put him in the bath with me the past two times and it’s the sweetest/best thing ever.
It’s also way more relaxing for both of us and he seems to enjoy it a little more.
During bath time I like to put his favorite hooded towel in the dryer so it’s nice and warm for him when he gets out!
So once we dry him off and let him warm up in his favorite towel we put a clean diaper on him,
lay him on a towel on the couch and get him ready for his nightly massage! (lucky kid)
Every night we massage him all over with organic coconut oil to help keep his skin moisturized and to also help his tummy/gas.
During the massage I focus on rubbing his tummy in circle like motions and also do bicycles with his legs and knees to chest motions just to get his body really relaxed // help with gas.
Once he’s all lathered up from head to toe I put two drops of Gentle Baby essential oil on his tummy and rub that in.
He LOVES the smell and I truly believe it helps him relax and sleep better at night.
After his massage we’ll put him in a tank onesie and one of his favorite saddles, the Ollie, or the Embe 

After he’s swaddled one of us will get our bedroom ready, we like to diffuse Lavender and Sleepyize at night time and the diffuser also makes for a good little night light! Once the diffuser is going we get the shusher going as well and then we’ll bring Hayes in there!
Every now and then we’ll be able to time it perfectly and he’ll be hungry right after his massage.
If he’s hungry we’ll head to bed and i’ll nurse him in bed and he’ll usually be pretty sleepy and I can just set him directly in his bassinet afterwards and he’ll fall fast asleep.

If he ends up being wide eyed after his massage then one of us will walk around and rock him to sleep or we’ll set him in his rock and play while the other preps the room!

During the day Hayes will eat about every 2-3 hours but lately at night it’s been about every 3-4 which is super nice! But I’ll go into all that in my post about Breastfeeding later this week!

I feel like this post was super random but hopefully y’all enjoyed it or found it helpful.
REALLY going to try and get my breastfeeding post up sometime this week as well!!

Here’s a list of all of the items I mentioned – just click the photo to shop!

Hope everyone has a great day!!

Okay so I totally struggled with what to title this post because we aren’t exactly on a “schedule” yet,
more like a night time routine that happens often, but not always lol

We are officially parents of an ALMOST 1 month old… WHAT?!? So crazy to me.
Our pediatrician told us at our last appointment that there’s really no reason to try and get Hayes on a strict schedule yet, he’s still so little and is kind of going to be doing what he wants when he wants, so right now I just nurse him when he’s hungry, and let him sleep when he’s sleeping.
However, I have been trying to keep him awake a little more during the day time so that he understands day from night a little better!

Alright, here we go…
As a new mama it is SO hard to start a schedule… you’re in survival mode, you’re exhausted,
and honestly, the last thing you want is to be following a timeline or a schedule…
So, unlike most people, I’ve been pretty chill about the whole schedule thing.
Will I regret this later? maybe? maybe not? Who knows.
But this is what’s been working for us right now!!

So we currently bathe Hayes twice a week, we’ve designated Tuesdays and Fridays as our bath days!
Newborns have super sensitive skin and they really don’t get dirty, so if you bathe them
too often it can cause their skin to majorly dry out and start peeling.
Kyle gets home from work around 5:30/6 and we typically go on a little family walk.
On Tuesdays and Fridays (bath nights) we try to give Hayes his bath around 7:30!
After his bath we put coconut oil all over his little body as a lotion/moisturizer,
and then we “prep the house” for bed – This step is SUPER important.
My sweet friend Jamie filled me in on this and I’m SO thankful she did….
So babies are VERY easily overstimulated.
So at night time, we make sure to dim all the lights in the house, make sure the TV isn’t too loud and keep things as calm and “night time” like as possible.

So in order for me to get a couple hours of uninterrupted sleep, I nurse Hayes and go to bed around 8 or 9.
Kyle stays up with him and they hang out in the living room and if he happens to get hungry again Kyle will give him a bottle of my breastmilk so I can rest.
At first I was really nervous to give Hayes a bottle, I was so worried that giving him a bottle would make him not want to breastfeed, BUT after a week of pretty much NO sleep whatsoever, you’ll do anything lol
And good news, he still prefers his mama!

So when I go to bed around 8 or 9, this is when my “main sleep” happens. I know Hayes is being cared for by his daddy and I don’t have to feed him anytime soon since he’ll be getting a bottle and I can finally relax.
This sleep stretch can be anywhere from 1-4 hours.
Those 4 hour nights are extremely rare but goodness they’re incredible and make me feel like I can conquer the world! Those 1 hour nights are TOUGH and are when Hayes is cluster feeding or can only be soothed by his mama.

Around 11 or 12 they’ll both come to bed and Hayes is typically ready to eat again,
so i’ll nurse him, change his diaper and then mama night shift begins!
Every night is different, Hayes typically wakes up about every 2 hours to eat, and I’ll feed him, burp him and change him.
Occasionally he’ll want to eat every hour and those nights are longggggg and tough, life with a newborn is just really unpredictable!
I stay in bed when I nurse him and Kyle is usually able to sleep through it, which is good!

I’m sure I’ll get some questions about this so I’ll go ahead and answer!!
Yes, Hayes sleeps in bed with us and No, I never thought/planned we would be co sleeping.
He sleeps right in between us in his Dock A Tot and I love having him close by, for right now.
He’s still my tiny little newborn and I totally get separation anxiety when I can’t see or hear him.
Although I LOVE having Hayes right next to me, Kyle and I are definitely missing going to bed together and sleeping next to each other, so I’m not sure how long this “routine” and co sleeping thing are going to last.
BUT for right now, it’s what works for us!

I also want to share a few things that I think really help Hayes sleep at night!
Kyle and I have always had the TV on at night when we fall asleep but ladies and gentlemen,
that is now a thing of the past.
I started to notice pretty quickly that the flashing lights from the TV were keeping Hayes awake
and it was amazing how quickly he would settle down once the TV was off!
Another thing that I think is a total miracle worker is “shushing”,
I’m pretty sure they make actual devices that do this but we use Kyle’s work phone and just
youtube “8-10 hours of baby shushing” and it really does soothe Hayes, and honestly it soothes us too! lol

I always have a pacifier close by as well, sometimes Hayes will take it and sometimes he won’t,
but those nights that he does take it, it’s a life saver!
We’ve also been using some Essential Oils for bed time, diffusing and also applying to Hayes’s little feet.
Let me know if y’all are interested in knowing more about which oils we’ve been using.

I know a lot of you were hoping for some kind of routine or daily schedule post,
but that’s just not our reality right now. I hope this was at least somewhat helpful though!!
To all you mamas reading this, IT’S ALMOST THE WEEKEND!!!!!

I am super excited to share a little behind the scenes action of our newbown/family shoot we did last week!
I have a feeling y’all are going to completely fall in love with Lentille Photography, just like I did!

(dress was borrowed from the studio wardrobe – brand is Fillyboo)

Kyle, myself and Hayes headed to Stafford for our photoshoot Thursday morning, and goodness it was chaotic. It was our first outing with Hayes and he was SUPER fussy that morning. By the time we arrived he had peed through his diaper and through his clothes and I think I had to nurse him about a million times while we were there! Thank God Allison (the photographer) and
Bridgette (owner of Bespoken Beauty) were SO sweet and patient with us!!

The girls were so incredibly welcoming and sweet when we arrived and made us feel super comfortable.
One thing I LOVE about Lentille Photography is that it’s a full service studio.
You basically show up looking like hot garbage and Bridgette turns you into a glowing goddess with her hair & makeup skills and then Allison helps you choose the perfect outfit from her gorgeous wardrobe selection before she starts snapping photos.

Here are a few studio pictures. I seriously couldn’t get over how CUTE everything was!
This is the hair and makeup area.

Below is the “lounging room” where Kyle and Hayes hung out while I got my hair and makeup done!
On the other side of the room is the wardrobe. The best part?! She doesn’t just dress the ladies, she also provides shirts for husbands and swaddles, hats etc for your babes!

As a new mama,
not having to think of what to wear or worry about trying to get myself put together was AMAZING.

After I chose my dress it was time for hair & makeup!
I am always SUPER picky about getting my hair and makeup done but I’m not kidding when I say that Bridgette may just be the BEST in Houston, I felt absolutely stunning,
and that’s saying A LOT for being 4 days post partum!


For any hair or make up needs Bridgette is your girl!!!

Once hair & makeup was done it was time to start shooting!!
I can’t even begin to tell y’all how amazing Allison was with Hayes,
She is for real, the definition of a baby whisperer!
She actually used to be a labor and delivery nurse so it totally makes sense.
Here are a few pictures I took while she was doin’ her thing!!




I really can’t say enough good things about Lentille Photography, and HIGHLY suggest you book with her!
It was such a great experience overall and she even sent me two sneak peek photos the SAME day we did the photoshoot!

I’ll be sharing some of our amazing photos from the shoot with y’all next week as well as some other little things Allison does to make your experience with her easy and extra special!!

Happy Monday Babes!!!