Bump Date, Getting closer! – 33 weeks + 4 days

I can’t believe how close we are.
We’re really going to be PARENTS. We’re going to have a SON.
It’s so exciting and so scary all at the same time.
I am just full of feelings lately but the strongest & most consistent feeling is gratitude. 
It blows my mind that the Lord handpicked Kyle and I to be Hayes’s mommy & daddy,
That He considers us worthy and capable of something so amazing.
How did I get so lucky? Why am I receiving these blessings? I ask myself these questions every single day…
I’m so undeserving but so incredibly grateful.


// Knit Doll //

Okay, I’m going to stop talking now and get straight to the bump date because now i’m crying!!!!!

How far along: 33 weeks + 4 days

Due date: March 4th! Measuring right on track!

Gender: ALL boyyyyyy – Hayes Wyatt / Hawk / Bubs / Little Dude / Stinker Butt / I’m sure this list of names will grow tremendously haha

How big is baby? This week, Hayes is as big as celery? haha He weighs 4 lbs 10oz exactly!

Total weight gain/loss: I’ve gained 25 lbs total!

Stretch Marks?: I totally thought I was going to be able to avoid these but I did notice a few on my chest recently…so I’ve been lathering myself in cocoa butter nonstop! But hey, as long as I get a healthy baby boy at the end of this thing a few stretch marks are no big deal!

This week, baby: Has moved into the head down position, and is getting ready for his grand entrance! He now keeps his eyes open while awake and is starting to coordinate breathing with sucking and swallowing.

Exercise: What’s exercise?? HA. I have been stretching a lot more lately because everything is so uncomfortable and tight, I’m still trying to go on long walks as often as possible!

What I’m googling: HOW THE HECK DO I WRITE A BIRTH PLAN. I’ve been trying to finish this since my last bump date 5 weeks ago!! For some reason I’m having the hardest time with it. Also googling “what to pack in my hospital bag”.. and just what the heck to do in general!!

Purchases I’ve made/nesting update: Haven’t really made any new purchases recently. Oh wait, that’s a lie. I bought some super sexy “after birth” underwear and some MASSIVE pads. And if you don’t know me very well the “super sexy” part of that sentence is extremely sarcastic. Probs going to buy some adult diapers soon for the postpartum bleeding, heck with the bladder leakage I’ve got going on I might as well just start wearing them now!!

How are you feeling?
Physically: Physically, I feel great most hours of the day, nighttime seems to be the worst for me. Everything starts aching in the evenings and Hayes starts putting a lot of pressure on my pelvic area. Sometimes it also feels like he’s trying to push his way out of my stomach. Baths are a MUST every single day now, sometimes multiple times a day.
Emotionally: Emotionally, I’m a hot freaking mess. Like I can’t even try and play this one down, I am officially a lunatic. SO emotional and SO hormonal. We spent the day at my sister in laws house Monday afternoon playing games and just hanging out with the family and I cried the entire hour long ride home because “I just love Charley so much” (Charley is our dog) When I say I cried, I mean I sobbed hysterically. Crying is something that happens every day now, for a multitude of reasons – because i’m so happy, or love someone/something so much, i’m hurting and uncomfortable, i’m ready to meet Hayes, i’m overwhelmed at everything we still have to do, something hurt my feelings, i’m terrified of labor, someone looked at me wrong, someone didn’t look at me, Kyle asked me what’s for dinner, Kyle sat on the wrong couch, Kyle ate my favorite cereal (y’all just pray for Kyle)…honestly I could try and list all the things that have made me cry in the last two weeks but it would take several hours and I know y’all don’t really care SO I’ll just leave it at that obnoxious list above. I should’ve just put “unstable” and left it at that hahaha

Maternity clothes: are sent from the Lord above Himself and if you’re pregnant and avoiding maternity clothing then you’re also a lunatic and you need to get ya some stretchy pants NOW.

Sleep: Well, when I do actually fall asleep I tend to let out a big snort and wake myself back up…Sleep is no longer something I look forward too because it kind of just doesn’t happen and feels like work. Guess my body is preparing me for the long sleepless nights of motherhood!

Best moment this week: We got to see baby boy on ultrasound yesterday!!! He has grown SO much and looks completely different than I imagined! He has a full head of hair & SUPER chubby cheeks and I just can’t wait to hold him and kiss him and tell him how perfect he is. He loves having his foot up by his face and is very stubborn, just like his daddy – never wants photos taken of him! He yawned a lot and made so many silly facial expressions!

Worst moment this week: Well, with the bad weather Kyle had to move a bunch of his work priorities around and he accidentally scheduled his super busy interview session day during our ultrasound…I’ll spare y’all the details but I basically had a panic attack/pity party/hysterical breakdown at the thought of him missing our last ultrasound…it was BAD, pretty sure I started getting contractions mid breakdown. BUT I pulled myself together and we were able to get the ultrasound re scheduled (to yesterday) so he was able to come!!! Praise the Lord.

Miss anything? Well, sorry if this is TMI but attempting to shave my legs (& other areas) is pretty much the worlds most difficult and exhausting task. My belly is so big now that I literally can’t see a damn thing, I can’t bend or lean over without squishing my child and all of my organs, If I try to shave my legs while sitting down I can only do the outsides of my thighs because my belly covers the tops of my thighs…Oh, and painting my toes?? Nope, literally impossible. Honestly, if I put on pants and shoes these days I consider that a huge success as well as my work out for the week.

Movement: He’s just full of energy and wiggles around nonstop! Lately we’ve been having so much fun trying to guess which part of his body we’re feeling.

Cravings/Eating: Still craving sweets – Craving sugary cereal more than ice cream lately!

Symptoms: Emotional wreck//tight & achy lower back//moving a lot slower//waddling//shortness of breath//

How’s Daddy doing? Kyle is amazing, he can’t wait for Hayes to get here and has been SO supportive and sweet and patient with me during this entire pregnancy. He’s going to be such an incredible dad, I can already picture him teaching Hayes how to fix and build things and I can’t freaking wait to watch them interact together.

Looking forward to: My baby shower!! It’s in a couple weeks and I can’t wait to see all of my close friends and family together celebrating this special boy of ours.

To-dos this week: Find a pediatrician//Order Breast Pump//Write down a list of what to pack in hospital bag//RELAX

So thankful for all of you who read this blog of mine, and it makes me SO happy to hear from y’all.
So please don’t ever hesitate to leave me a comment, or say hi!

Black Friday SALES – The Best of the Best

Coming to all of you today to share the best of the best ONLINE Black Friday SALES!!
I’m so excited about this post because I’ve picked my all time favorite online stores
that are having sales…The stores list below are my GO TO places to shop online.

 So I recently discovered GoodnightMacaroon and It’s now one of my absolute FAVORITE shops.
They have sales and discount codes regularly and all of the items are absolutely adorable.
The entire site is currently 30% off so I’m sharing my MUST HAVES with y’all!!
I already have the OTK boots in tan but the grey pair are in my cart!!
Truly the best OTK boots I’ve ever owned.

Next up, is Abercrombie & Fitch – why did I ever stop shopping here?!
They’re having a HUGE site wide 50% off sale!
Here are some of my top picks…

Free People is probably my favorite brand BUT they are a bit pricier,
so whenever they have sales I am ALL OVER it.
They’re having 50% off SO many amazing items, and other sales as well!!
Shop my favorites below or just click here to head to their website and see all sales.

I’ve always shopped at ASOS but have become an even bigger fan since being pregnant.
They have ADORABLE maternity clothing — and adorable regular sizes as well!
They’re currently having 30% off their entire site,
I’m debating on getting my maternity photoshoot gown from them, I’ll link it below!!

Of course I can’t do a Black Friday post without sharing some cute Target finds.
Click HERE for a list of women’s sweaters for only $10!!
We have that Safavieh rug (middle right) in our living room and get SO many compliments.

I’m also rounding up some cute Etsy sale items!!
One of those chunky knit blankets is on my Christmas wishlist, loving that pink color!
Also, those wooden shelves would look ADORABLE in the nursery – or any room!

Last but not least, my one true love Nordstrom, click here to shop their full Black Friday Sale

Happy Shopping!!!

A Year Ago Today…

A year ago today I got real personal with y’all.
A year ago today I opened up and shared that Kyle and I had been struggling to get pregnant.
(see that post here)
It was one of the scariest things I have ever done.
One day something just came over me, and I knew God wanted me to share my story.
I wasn’t sure why, and as I sit here typing this, with my baby boy kicking and doing flips in my tummy, I’m even more confused as to why God put it on my heart to share.
I would be lying if I sat here and told y’all that there aren’t times that I regret sharing.
If I had known that I would become pregnant just 7 months later I would have never shared my story…
because frankly, there’s a big part of me that feels guilty for being pregnant
while so many of you are still feeling the pain that I was feeling just last year.

I remember writing the post and feeling so worried about what people were going to think.
I didn’t want sympathy from anyone, and I honestly didn’t want anyone to tell me,
“It’ll be okay” or “You’ll be a mom, just give it time”
Although in my case those words have come to be true, that just wasn’t
what I needed or wanted to hear at that point in my life.
Not because I didn’t appreciate people trying to comfort me, but because these
people didn’t know what my future would hold. Although they are nice things to say,
no one really knew for sure if I would be okay or if I would be a mommy one day.

I was broken, sad, confused and felt alone.
It’s crazy because SO many people are opening up these days and sharing their stories.
(which is amazing and inspiring)
However, everyones story and situation is SO different.
So even if others may be going through a similar situation of trying to get pregnant,
it still almost feels like no one can relate, because everyones story, everyones body,
and everyones journey is just SO unique.

After opening up and sharing our story SO many of you reached out to me and
told me your personal stories and how you were struggling as well.
Even though our stories were all different, we all had the same desires,
and I felt like I had this small community of people who somewhat just “got it”.

Although I may not be a part of that “community” anymore,
I continue to pray for each of you every day.
I pray that my story gives you hope and not sadness or jealousy.
I pray that God will give you the grace to handle the cards you’ve been dealt,
the strength and faith to push forward and keep fighting for what you want,
and the wisdom to know when it’s time to just breathe, take a step back and give it all to Him.

Thanksgiving is a time to celebrate loved ones and be thankful for all that you have,
but I’m 100% aware that those desires of your heart are there and sometimes being around family and friends who seem to all be living out your dream can be daunting.
I know it’s SO difficult to put on a happy face when all you can think about is wanting to start a family of your own, and it feels like it’s happening for everyone around you.

Just know, whoever and wherever you are…
You’re being thought about today.
You’re being prayed for,
and You’re not forgotten or alone.

Weekend Recap – OOTD

Sheesh how is it already Monday?!
We were pretty busy this weekend, so of course it feels like it was JUST Friday.
One of my very best friends had a cute little “I Do BBQ” on Saturday,
so Kyle and I hopped over there to celebrate for a few hours!
I actually ended up changing my top last minute,
but this is a super cute look as well – I’m a huge fan of mixing prints!!
Stripes and leopard print are always a big YES in my book.

The BBQ was at this adorable place called Spindletap Brewery,
If you’ve never been I HIGHLY recommend going!
I got super crazy and had a sip of champagne, haha!
It was so much fun seeing and catching up with everyone,
but it didn’t take long for my feet to start swelling and feel super uncomfortable.
This was the first and probably the last time I attempt to wear pumps while pregnant.

We got home around 6 and were totally ready for bed haha
This time change has got us all kinds of confused with how dark it’s been getting!
We worked on the nursery a lot on Sunday and I’m SO excited to share it with y’all.
I think I’m going to wait and do a big reveal on here once it’s completely finished,
but don’t worry you’ll see small glimpses every now and then on Insta stories!!

I’ve got a fun post for y’all tomorrow, sharing a new self tanner I’ve discovered!
So make sure you hop back over to say hi and check it out!!
Have a great Monday y’all!

22 week bump date

I am officially 22 weeks pregnant and feeling bigger than ever!
Figured i’d do one of these little “bump date” posts today,
mainly for me to remember, but hopefully y’all will enjoy it as well!!

How far along are you? 22 weeks and 1 day!
What fruit are you? Well, one app told me baby is the size of a burger, another one told me a coconut, and another told me a papaya! Soooo….there ya go!
Due Date? March 4th! But secretly hoping he comes a tinyyyy bit earlier
Gender: Boy! Hayes Wyatt
Total weight gain/loss: I had gained about 15 lbs at my 20 week appointment, I officially weigh the most I have ever weighed!
Exercise: Gosh i’m trying! It’s definitely not as easy as I was hoping it would be, but i’ve been doing 30 minute work outs every now and then and just modifying the moves, and also walking every day!
Stretch marks: None so far, Hoping it stays that way!
Swelling: No swelling yet, however if i’m on my feet all day they tend to feel about 500 lbs
Maternity clothes: Oh that’s a big YES, give me all the stretchy pants please. Seems like I’m even growing out of those these days!
Belly button: In! I have an oddly deep belly button so I’m thinking it may stay this way! haha
Sleep: Lots of tossing and turning, baby boy LOVES to kick me at night!
Food cravings: Yellow gatorade, milk…been craving candy/sweets more!
Symptoms: Lower back pain, heavy boobs lol!
Movement: SO much movement, all throughout the day. Seriously the best feeling in the whole entire world. I could just stare at my tummy all day long.
What I miss: Fitting into all of my normal clothes lol
What I’m loving: Watching my body change, feeling those sweet kicks, preparing his nursery.
What i’m looking forward too: Seeing this baby boys sweet face, Watching Kyle be a dad, and just alllllllll the baby snuggles.
Best moment this week: Seeing his kicks on the outside of my tummy!
Words of wisdom: Pregnancy is such an incredible thing. People say it all the time but it really is crazy what our bodies are capable of. Give yourself grace during pregnancy, don’t be too hard on yourself. Try to enjoy every moment and every bump along the way. There are good days and there are hard days and that’s just the way it is, soak it all up mama!!!!