In loving memory.

This weekend I did something that I’ve been wanting to do for 5 years now.

5 years ago my uncle tragically passed away.

It was by far one of the hardest things I have ever been through in my entire life,

If not the hardest.

He meant more to me than he will ever know and I miss him & think about him every single day.

Tattoos are permanent and I am very aware of that,

I want nothing more than a beautiful reminder that my Uncle is always here with me. 

[It says, I carry your heart with me]

Friday night my best friend Claire and I headed to Prison Break Tattoos 

in hopes that I would be getting my very first tattoo!

I knew exactly where and what I wanted, but of course was absolutely terrified.

We walked in and everyone there was SO friendly and helpful and made me feel super comfortable.

I told them exactly what I wanted and we went through some different font options, 

only took me about 3 minutes to decide on one, and holy crap was I excited.

Before I knew it I was laying on the table with little needles shooting ink into the skin on my spine.

Now, I’m going to admit that it DID hurt, however not near as bad as I was expecting.

I did a lot of googling beforehand and totally freaked myself out,

like almost to the point where I didnt go through with it.

Everywhere I looked said that your spine is THE most painful spot, 

Also, when I walked into the parlor and told them where I wanted it, they were like..

“You want it on your spine and this is your FIRST tattoo?! Wellp, go big or go home I guess”

Since I was expecting it to be SO awful, I think I was surprised at how not awful it was,

if that even makes any sense? haha

It was definitely uncomfortable and there were some parts that hurt like heck, 

but Ivan did such an incredible job and really made it THE best experience for me. 

I am SO in love with my new tattoo and so happy I finally did it.

I carry your heart with me, I carry it in my heart, I am never without it.

Anywhere I go you go, my dear.

Life as a Grown up isn’t always fun.


Jeans: Paige Denim via Nordstrom (similar)


How come no one warned me that all of my money would disappear when I grew up?
Gosh, paying bills is so lame.
It’s not only lame, it’s also stressful and depressing.

Kyle and I are currently renting right now,
and ever since the break in I honestly can’t wait to get out.
I know break ins can happen anywhere and it was probably just random bad luck,
but still, I do not feel comfortable here at all anymore.

Can someone just loan us a couple 100k?!
Wouldn’t that be convenient?!

One bummer about owning your own business is you can’t get approved for a loan
until after you’ve been in business for 2 years, so that’s also holding us back!

Kyle really wants to live out on land somewhere,
I would like land also, but I want to live close to the city as well.
Working from home makes you realize how desperately you NEED errands to run,
and a gym to actually go too.
I also don’t want to be too far away from family.

I guess this is what happens when you get married,
life decisions start happening, and they aren’t as easy to make as you would think!
Unless if you have an unlimited money supply of course.

If you could just be praying for us that would be awesome!
I’m desperate for us to get out of the house we’re in now,
so prayers for us to find the perfect home that we both love and that’s in a good location.
And of course for me to be at peace in this home until we are able to find a new one.

Happy hump day ladies, and thanks for being so awesome <3

xoxo, Monica

Overwhelmed…In a good way.

Can y’all believe he FINALLY did it?!

I think I’m still in shock.

[Excuse my boy hands, I obviously wasnt expecting a proposal.]


so much for all of the love!

We are both seriously so pumped.

I am so full of emotions you would think I was pregnant.

(I’m NOT)

One minute I can’t stop smiling, the next I’m crying, then I’m giggling uncontrollably.

I can’t believe that I finally get to put all of my wedding pins on pinterest to good use


I am having one major dilemma though.

Maybe y’all can help?

For the past few months when I’ve been daydreaming about my wedding

I’ve pictured myself wearing a beautiful ball gown wedding dress…

but now that I actually get to pick a dress out I’m SO confused.

I have NO idea what style I want, obviously I’ll have a better idea once I try them on.

But I want y’alls opinions, what kind of dress can you picture me in?!

Ball Gown? Mermaid? Simple? Lace? Satin?

Go into full detail if you want, lol I need ALL the help I can get.

I’ve got a lotttttttttt of decisions to make soon, 

but at least they are all fun decisions!

How has everyone been?! 

Obviously, I’ve been pre-occupied with all of this craziness going on!